Killing the Kill in name of a Better Life

Almost like a transcendence i felt myself outside me.
— I was outer me. — And i swore myself.
And this stupid reverie made me figure how votile i am
to others... And just because i'm not okay with myself.
The venom in my lips...
And the edge of my tongue...
Don't leave me alone...
So i'll kill myself.

Look at me looking the nothing beyond the everything again.
And all of this i owe to you, my past, i belong to drag what you
did, that anchor called old me — someone i think i'll never forgive.
And this person i was, the feelings i felt... It all weighs in my back.
These sorrows in my head...
The silent will of scream in my throat...
And the nightmares that always show the same whispers:
My own thing.

But now i know it all: i'm not my own pall to be resting in.
And the light has sacrificed the kill! I will, i will and i will be more
than i ever were draging my past behind: because now the only
thing that i need to see is the further! Let's go ahead against all of
this rapids that tries to arrest me to nowhere!
There's a light that shine in my mind..
And the angel of my conscience calls.
Leave me, past, now i'm not yours!
I am mine, and for now... I am me!