I Don't Want To Feel This Overwhelming Hostility

Lost again upon what's missing and weary
unable to break the solitude
dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go
I face the sorrow that beholds within tomorrow

waking to the cries drawn out from below
surrendering to the gravity in the unknown
while the healing takes its toll
I choose to live, I choose to live

catch me for what it's worth
lifting me to the sun
finding a way to hit rock bottom
counting out the hands in need
while slamming all the pills
I feel a little slow
yet I believe in what sets me free

pacing with patience and drifting upon the missing moment
capturing the mistake within a perfect circle
one chain to connect the will
to relieve the broken and release us all
drifting over the fortress
with level heads we strip what's left to string a stray
where the memory is what keeps me from killing you
and I can almost hear you scream
yet waves crash ashore
my mind levitates in need to explore

with one more medicated peaceful moment
I might just forget what started the itch
feeling this overwhelming hostility
clearing away from what haunts me most
biblical residue left within what I have written you
smearing the crown ship of what you say
the memory is what keeps me from killing you

to say I'm not the king
is written without exposure
with one result
we search in need to dream the dreams
the spotlight, the image, remembered before the end of time
for the miracle of living the tale from beginning
still feeling a little overwhelming
the thought floats away and the sky clears its eyes
and I look to see the crowd within view
facing the liquid smearing the letters
cutting away from what keeps me sane
snipping away from the residue
maybe I'm only a man
yet I have found a way to leave my mark
with only a memory of killing you